Just a few minutes ago, the grandfather clock downstairs chimed the twelve o'clock hour, denoting the official start to our wedding day. I'm laying in my bedroom in my parents' house, the same room in which I spent countless hours on the phone with Mr. Snow Cone during the early parts of our relationship. The exact same physical space, completely different mental spaces. Nine years ago, I'd lay on my bed, discussing the day's events with Mr. Snow Cone. Now, I lay on my bed, trying to wrap my head around the fact that I am preparing to marry the greatest individual I've been lucky enough to have in my life.
This past week has had its ups and downs, to say the least. Fortunately, the ups far outnumber the downs, and I have absolutely no doubt that two days, weeks, months, or years from now, the ups will be what stand out in our individual and collective memories. It sounds trite, but I find myself wishing more than anything that I could bottle this emotion to keep in my possession - every important person in your life is in the same place at the same time, unbelievably excited for you and for what's to come. Every little blunder and oversight regarding seating charts and head counts become nothing more than a distant memory; it frankly becomes embarrassing to realize that you wasted as much time as you did agonizing over the "problem" before coming to your solution. All of that seems simply petty in comparison to the true, undeniable electricity that runs through your veins in the hours leading up to the wedding day.
To Mr. Snow Cone: I know my indecisiveness can drive you up a wall, so you of all people should appreciate the gravity of this statement - choosing you to be my partner in life was the easiest decision I've ever faced. I may struggle with picking eggplant versus plum and other frivolous details like that; but when it comes to picking the person I want to share the rest of my life with, it was really quite the no-brainer. You are better for me than I'll ever know, and I can only hope to make you feel the same love and adoration that you infuse into my life on a daily basis. I'll see you at the end of the aisle in a few hours.
For the very last time,
Miss Snow Cone